Out

What do u do to re-motivate urself at work? Cos right now, I'm so done with it. Like, tak boleh blah dah. Help! for a start, i've decided to chop a huge chunk of hair off.

apa cuti labour day? it's 8.58pm and i'm still at the office. -__________________________________-

dream, orientation and everything in between

i had the stupidest dream last night.
not THAT stupid, just stupid enough for me to remember it, which rarely happens when u dream, right?
so anyway, in this dream, i sorta spilled hot water or burned my ring finger.
after a few hours, it has gotten so bad that i had to go see the doctor.
so i went. with a baby. MY BABY -__________-
inside the treatment room, i had to feed the baby and let her sleep so the doctor can attend to me with no distraction -_________-
and when she's finally asleep, the doc started his treatment on me AND can't stop touching my finger and hands -________-
omg apa mimpi ini??!
then tiba lah part bodoh gila, my colleague stormed into the room and warned the doctor not to touch me and acted like he's my husband (he's not!).
doc backed off and just smeared some weird smelling lotion on the burned finger and apparently i was fine afterwards.

apakah kebodohan ini?
whatever it is, i just feel like blogging it out. hehe.

* * *

okay so what happened while i was away?
nothing much.
kehidupan berjalan seperti biasa.
busy with classes, kerja-kerja pejabat dan sebagainya.
went to putrajaya a 4-day meeting.
my team and i had to train a bunch of 78 KK english lecturers from all over malaysia on the 9th and 10th of April.
we've been developing this new curriculum for it to be used starting next semester, so we have to train them on how to execute it and whatnots.
so wish me luck.

public speaking is something that i'm very bad at.

promotion, pening and everything in between

congratulations to 22 of my officemates who got promoted to DH44!!
so happy and proud of them all.
they truly deserve it. worked their asses off.
of course there just had to be some drama, some ketidakpuasanhati and all.
but hey, who are you to question rezeki from Allah right?
semoga dengan kenaikan pangkat ini akan membuatkan tuan tuan dan puan puan sekalian bekerja dengan lebih jaya lagi.
i'm happy that i am here, with a bunch of super hardworking government servants, walaupon ada yang banyak complaint pasal our services and all.
but then again, can't blame them. probably they have had bad experience with the wrong people.
mana-mana pun ada lah sikit sebanyak pekerja yang tak betul-betul kerja.
bukan dalam government sector je, private sector pon ada.
kitorang pun stay back at the office, tidur kat office and all.
takde pun canang satu dunia right?
tolerate lah sikit.
jangan hentam teruk sangat.
bukan semua pekerja kerajaan macam itu.
don't generalize. nanti ramai yang terasa, kan tak pasal-pasal penat nak kena mintak maaf?
:)

have a great weekend everyone. may Allah bless us all.

Xx

Wordless Wednesday #1 2012

Maaaaaaan after 2 years of not seeing #5 on that scale!!
Weighed myself again just now and I'm at 59.5.
I still have a long way to go, but really this is just great!
Bring it on 2012!!

Xx

of new year, grief and everything in between

i remembered something that happened towards the end of 2011.
if i'm not mistaken, in december.
i was born and bred in perlis.
my fam moved to PD 5 years ago.
circa 1999-2006, there's this one old man (Pak Brahim) who used to sell ulam-ulaman as his way to make a living, used to stop by to our house in the evening, usually around 3 or 4.
and whoever was at the house at that time would make his fav iced milo.
he wouldn't settle for any other drink :)
always.
every single day except when we were away for hols and when we moved to PD.
he was old lah, around 50 ++ or 60++ then.

and one weekend in december when i went back to PD, mom told me he passed away.
he was murdered.
someone robbed him, and hit him in the head.
that poor old guy was robbed and murdered.
and the same words kept lingering in my head.
"robbed and murdered".
it didn't register at first. i had to ask mom many many times, "are u sure he is murdered? and someone robbed him?? like ROBBED, like threatened-him-and-stole-his-money rob?
mom said yes to everytime i asked the question.

i was devastated. big time. i just lost it. i cried and cried and cried and was sobbing like crazy thinking, "what did this old man ever do to deserve such horrible thing to happen to him??!!"
but mom assured me that it was his time to go and whatever and however way, it's his time.
turns out that a drug addict robbed him for money to buy drugs.
stupid, married with kids drug addict.
and how kantoi? cos he dropped hi IC on the scene, next to Pak Brahim's body.

Pak Brahim:
- maaaan he was strong for a man his age. he would walk from his house to Kangar town (10++km everyday, rain or shine), stopped by our house on his way back from town, saved us some of our fav ulam.

- his walk is like a catwalk. very graceful. full of energy.

- he passed away a single man. no wife, no children.

- he had a few relung of sawah padi. (in perlis, kampung people are considered rich when u have a lot of tanah/sawah padi.)

- we keep him in our prayers now.
this is when children are useful.
when u passed, there are children to continue praying for u.

Dear Pak Brahim, semoga roh tuan dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah swt, semoga kuburnya diterangi cahaya, dilapangkan, dijauhi dari seksa kubur dan api neraka.
semoga tuan ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman dan para syuhada.
semoga tuan lebih tenang di sana. it was a great pleasure having u around back then.
Al-fatihah :')

LOL!

ada tak setahun tak update?
saya sebenarnya tengah buat kerja ni. tapi nak muntah dah.
so nak cerita ceriti sikit lah kat blog labah-labah ni.
kamu apa khabar? saya semakin sihat saja.
apa saya nak cerita ha?
review 2011?
apa nak direview eh?
saya cuba lah sikit-sikit.

1. saya berjaya turun 6 kilo je hujung-hujung tahun tu.
padahal janji sepanjang tahun. dah tu naik balik 2 kilo tahun ni je. ceh.

2. makin dekat dengan agama. gittuuuuuuu! hahahaha gelimat nak type k.
but syukur alhamdulillah nevertheless.

3. ..............

dah tu je. my life has been practically the same. nothing much has changed.

harapan untuk 2012:

1. TUKAR KERJA

2. turun lagi banyak banyak banyak kilo tapi taknak tunggu hujung-hujung.

3. learn more about islam. baru boleh bimbing orang lain kannn.

4. lebih rajin kerja. less talk more work.

ok lah. dah hilang rasa nak munmun.
nanti rasa nak munmun lagi saya update yeh?
jaga diri semua orang!!

Xx

iSad

knowing that u're not worthy of a simple "thank you" to someone, hurts the most.